Redzed and Recovery: Finding Truth in the Chaos

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This post contains references to addiction, substance use, and mental health struggles, which may be triggering for some readers, especially those who are new to recovery. Please proceed with care and know that this story is shared to inspire hope and reflect on personal growth. If you are struggling or in need of support, reach out to a trusted individual, support group, or professional resource. Recovery is a journey, and you are not alone.

Music has a way of cutting through everything—straight to your soul. When I first discovered Redzed, I was at one of the lowest points in my life. I had a half-ounce of cocaine to myself, bottles of whiskey on hand, and I was smoking constantly while moving pounds of weed. My life was chaos, but his music spoke to me in a way nothing else could at the time. Somehow, listening to his songs made me feel like I could stop using.

Today, I’m two years and eight months clean, folding clothes, burning incense, and dancing in front of my cat to those same songs. That transformation is wild to think about, but it’s real. Two songs in particular—“Drugs = Magic” and “Counting Days Till Suicide”—stand out as mirrors of my past and reminders of how far I’ve come.

1. Drugs = Magic

When I first heard “Drugs = Magic,” it hit like a punch to the gut. The way Redzed captures the seductive allure of substance use—the way it feels like magic at first—is so real. That false sense of power, freedom, or escape… I lived that. But what the song doesn’t shy away from is the cost of that so-called magic.

I remember sitting there, cocaine, whiskey, and weed in hand, blasting this track. It wasn’t just a song; it was like someone was holding up a mirror to my life. And somehow, even in the haze, I could see the truth: this wasn’t magic. It was destruction.

Now, when I listen to “Drugs = Magic,” it’s not about falling into those feelings but acknowledging them. That song reminds me of the seductive lies addiction tells and why I chose to walk away from them.

2. Counting Days Till Suicide

This song’s title alone is gut-wrenching, and its rawness cuts through every defense. When you’re deep in addiction, counting the days, even just existing, can feel unbearable. Redzed doesn’t glamorize it; he puts it out there as it is: unfiltered and honest.

Hearing this song during my addiction felt like someone else was speaking my thoughts out loud. It didn’t save me, but it validated the weight I was carrying. It helped me feel less alone in my struggle, and at the same time, it gave me a strange sense of hope—like if someone else could express this pain, maybe I could find a way to fight through it.

Now, in recovery, this song reminds me how close I was to losing everything. It’s heavy, but it’s also a testament to the strength it took to choose life over self-destruction.

Conclusion:

Redzed’s music might not be for everyone, but for me, it became a strange lifeline. His lyrics are raw and unfiltered, and they don’t offer easy answers—but they don’t need to. They reflect the chaos, the pain, and the struggle, and sometimes that’s exactly what you need to hear.

Today, I listen to those same songs from a completely different place. Where once I was drowning in addiction, now I’m free—dancing, folding clothes, and burning incense while the music plays. These songs are part of my journey, and they remind me of both where I came from and why I’ll never go back.

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