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FTF Journal: Healing the Bloodline
Love, faith, and recovery — this is what healing looks like when peace replaces pain, and leadership is guided by God, not ego.

facethyfear
Oct 26, 20256 min read


The Garden That Grew Me Back
Gardening gave me peace, prayer gave me power, and both keep me grounded. You don’t need perfection—just a pot, a seed, and a reason.

facethyfear
May 26, 20253 min read


From Eggrolls to Eden- Facing Depression Head On
From relapse to raised beds—how I turned depression, addiction, and brokenness into growth, purpose, and edible hope.

facethyfear
May 15, 20254 min read


Face It or Fake It
“You can fake it or you can face it. I chose to face it — even when it hurts. Still shaking. Still standing. Still free. #FTF”

facethyfear
Apr 28, 20254 min read


God Doesn’t Make Mistakes, Must Be Something Bigger Waiting
I used to love coke and booze, now I wear silver for God. The past can watch, but it don’t ride shotgun no more. #FaceThyFear

facethyfear
Apr 6, 20254 min read


866 Days Alcohol-Free: Still Healing, Still Real
866 days sober. Still healing. Still fighting. Addiction never sleeps—so neither can I. #FaceThyFear

facethyfear
Apr 1, 20253 min read


They Never Gave Me the Tools—But I’m Still Building
They never gave me the tools—but I’m still building. Breaking cycles, setting boundaries, and choosing healing over silence

facethyfear
Mar 31, 20254 min read


Isolation is a Beast
"Isolation rewires your brain, but you don’t have to stay trapped. Learn how to fight back, reconnect, and reclaim your life. #FaceThyFear"

facethyfear
Mar 22, 20255 min read


FaceThyFear Exclusive Interview: Justin Beatenbough – One Year Clean, No Looking Back
Justin Beatenbough lost everything to addiction—now he’s one year clean and proving no one is too far gone. #FaceThyFear

facethyfear
Mar 12, 20254 min read


Understanding Alcoholism: Why They Can’t Just Stop
By FaceThyFear | FTFNow.net Alcoholism isn’t about weakness. It’s not a lack of willpower. It’s not just “drinking too much.” If you’re...

facethyfear
Mar 7, 20254 min read


Chasing Nostalgia: The Sweet Simplicity of Uncle Al’s Lemon Planks
Why Treating Yourself Matters There’s something special about finding a snack that takes you back in time. That first bite, the familiar crunch, the burst of flavor—it’s not just about the taste; it’s about the memory. For me, that snack is Uncle Al’s Lemon Planks —a crisp, lemon-flavored treat that holds more than just flavor. It holds history, nostalgia, and a reminder to appreciate life’s small joys. The Hunt for Lemon Planks I buy them every time I see them. You can find

facethyfear
Mar 6, 20253 min read


To Anyone Who Feels Stuck: This Is for You
Feeling stuck? You can change your life. Take it 24 hours at a time. Read my story & start rewriting yours

facethyfear
Mar 5, 20254 min read


FaceThyFear Guide to Dreams: Understanding the Unseen
Introduction Dreams are more than just random images flashing through our minds at night. They are windows into our subconscious, mirrors...

facethyfear
Mar 3, 20255 min read


1,000 Days Sober: My Journey Through 10 Years of Addiction to Freedom
1,000 Days Sober: My Journey Through 10 Years of Addiction to Freedom Today marks 1,000 days sober from cocaine. It’s a milestone that I...

facethyfear
Feb 26, 20253 min read


FaceThyFear Blog: The Importance of Routine and Health in Recovery
By Malcolm Pannell | FaceThyFear Official Blog Website: www.Facethyfear.com (https://www.Facethyfear.com) Falling Out of Routine: A Hard...

facethyfear
Feb 24, 20253 min read


What’s the Point? The Struggle for Belonging After Recovery
© 2025 FaceThyFear® – All Rights Reserved By Malcolm Pannell | FaceThyFear® Disclaimer: The content in this article is based on personal...

facethyfear
Feb 16, 20254 min read


“Freezer Burn or True Love? Transforming from Unhealthy to Positive Relationships”
This Valentine’s Day hurt differently for me. As I sat reflecting on love, I felt a deep ache—not just for romance, but for the bonds...

facethyfear
Feb 14, 20254 min read


Frozen Memories: Ice Fishing Adventures on Lake Winnipesaukee
FaceThyFear Presents Frozen Memories: Ice Fishing Adventures on Lake Winnipesaukee By Malcolm Pannell CJ Richards/Yellow Perch The sun...

facethyfear
Feb 12, 20254 min read


Loneliness and Growth: Facing the Challenges of a Sober Life
Disclaimer: This post discusses personal experiences with mental health, recovery, and references to music that some readers may find...

facethyfear
Feb 10, 20254 min read


Choosing Your Struggle: The Price of Addiction vs. The Cost of Recovery
“You’re going to pay a price for every bloody thing you do and everything you don’t do. You don’t get to choose to not pay a price. You...

facethyfear
Jan 31, 20253 min read
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