1,000 Days Sober: My Journey Through 10 Years of Addiction to Freedom

Today marks 1,000 days sober from cocaine. It’s a milestone that I never thought I’d reach. This isn’t just about staying clean—this is about surviving 10 years of addiction, breaking the chains that held me down, and finding my way to freedom.

My story started like many others. I was around people who did coke, and I was selling it to make money. I promised myself that I’d never touch it, but then came the peer pressure and the desire to fit in. I took that first hit, and I was hooked.

At first, it felt like freedom—wild nights, endless parties, and a rush of confidence that made me feel unstoppable. But it was a false confidence, and I paid a heavy price for chasing it. One line was never enough. One drink was never enough. I couldn’t do just one of anything. I was constantly chasing more—more highs, more chaos, more of that feeling that made me forget who I was inside.

For ten years, I lived as a fiend. I woke up every morning with a Colombian cold, my nose always stopped up from the coke. I remember sweating hard from geeking out, feeling like my heart was going to explode. I remember draining my bank account just to feel alive, spending everything I had on a high that never lasted.

Behind the scenes, my life was falling apart. I watched people die from this poison. I had manic episodes fueled by cocaine and alcohol, moments when I felt like I was losing my mind. I went on endless binges that stole days of my life. I hurt people I loved, lost trust, and destroyed relationships. I was trapped in a rabbit hole of addiction, and every time I looked in the mirror, I hated who I’d become.

I felt like a prisoner in my own life. I was constantly searching for acceptance, desperate to feel like I was enough. But nothing ever made sense. I was Baptist, but I went to a Seventh Day Adventist school. My parents were divorced my entire life, and I felt lonely and out of place, always searching for something real to hold onto.

I tattooed my body with reminders of my desire to quit, but I was trapped in the lie of addiction. I told myself I could control it, but deep down, I knew I was a junkie—desperate to escape the pain of not feeling good enough.

After ten years of addiction, I knew I was running out of time. I knew that if I didn’t make a change, I was going to lose my life. So I made a choice to fight for my freedom. I walked into rehab broken, scared, and uncertain if I could change, but I found hope. I fought like hell to break free from addiction.

Recovery wasn’t easy—nothing about recovery is easy. I had to face my fears and confront the pain I’d been running from for so long. But step by step, day by day, I climbed my way out of that darkness.

I learned to find joy in the simple things—blasting music, burning incense, cooking, and celebrating every moment of sobriety. I learned to love myself, to accept my past, and to embrace life on my own terms.

Today, I celebrate 1,000 days of freedom from cocaine. But I also know that addiction is more dangerous now than ever before. Fentanyl (fetty) is in everything. People are dying because they don’t realize the drugs they’re doing are laced with it. I’ve lost friends, and I’ve seen too many lives destroyed.

If you’re out there struggling, I want you to know it’s a good time to stop. You deserve a life beyond addiction—a life of love, hope, and strength. Find healthier ways to escape. Pick up new hobbies. Dive into something that makes you feel alive without risking everything.

If I can make it out after ten years of addiction, so can you. There’s a better life waiting for you, but you have to be willing to face your fear and fight for your freedom.

Face your fear. Fight for your freedom. Celebrate every moment, because life is worth it.

Disclaimer:

This post reflects personal experiences and is not a substitute for professional medical advice, diagnosis, or treatment. Always seek the advice of your physician or a qualified healthcare provider with any questions you may have regarding addiction or mental health conditions.

Resources for Help:

If you or someone you know is struggling with addiction, here are some resources that can help:

• SAMHSA’s National Helpline: 1-800-662-HELP (4357)

• National Institute on Drug Abuse (NIDA): www.drugabuse.gov

• Alcoholics Anonymous (AA): www.aa.org

• Narcotics Anonymous (NA): www.na.org

• Boca Recovery Center: www.bocarecoverycenter.com

You are not alone. Help is available.

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