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C.J. Richards: Finding the Right Pace
Some people meet you before you change—and still recognize you after. CJ (beard) been solid. Real ones don’t switch. FTF™

facethyfear
Jan 35 min read


Christmas Without the Crash
Xmas without the crash: grapefruit I picked, cake from Craig ,Tybee dolphins, family laughing—1,133 days off Liqesha™, free. Still here.

facethyfear
Dec 26, 20257 min read


Peace After the Storm
It’s raining in Savannah. Dinner’s on the stove. I’m sober, married, and at peace—carrying my grandfather’s legacy forward by choosing stabi

facethyfear
Dec 18, 20254 min read


FTF Journal: Healing the Bloodline
Love, faith, and recovery — this is what healing looks like when peace replaces pain, and leadership is guided by God, not ego.

facethyfear
Oct 26, 20256 min read


It’s Been a Minute
Three years sober, 1,237 days clean. From chaos to calm—this is what the comeback looks like: quiet, focused, grateful, free.

facethyfear
Oct 21, 20255 min read


A Letter to My Nine Mill
On Nov 15, I put a nine mill in my mouth. 1,021 days later, I’m sober, alive, and ready to give back. FaceThyFear is proof.

facethyfear
Sep 3, 20253 min read


🌶🔥 FTF Proof Hot Sauce Chicken Dinner
Sticky hot sauce chicken, garlic basil rice, roasted broccoli. Bold flavor, balanced plate, FTF Kitchen recovery on a fork.

facethyfear
Aug 31, 20252 min read


Don’t Stay: How Linkin Park’s Meteora Taught Me Recovery Before I Knew I Needed It
Linkin Park’s Meteora was more than music — it became my first recovery guide, teaching surrender, boundaries, and survival.

facethyfear
Aug 22, 20253 min read


FTF Kitchen: Grilled Chicken & Creamy Pesto Rotini with Cayenne & Chocolate Beauty Peppers
Grill smoke, porch plants, and creamy pesto rotini with cayenne heat & chocolate beauty sweetness — a Savannah plate for body & soul.

facethyfear
Aug 12, 20253 min read


B4CK FRM TH D3AD
From liver failure to the light—B4CK FRM TH D3AD™ is my raw FTF code for surviving darkness and learning to LIVE TO LOVE™

facethyfear
Aug 12, 20253 min read


FTF Basil & Cayenne Porch Rice: An FTF PlantMasters Original
This rice is flavored with garlic, cayenne, and homegrown basil — cooked slow with care. A porch-born plate that Liqesha and Snowbella never

facethyfear
Jul 29, 20253 min read


From the Flames: How Grilling Helped Me Recover from Liqesha (LQXA)
Grilling helped me heal. From ZN.4 to sobriety, I found peace in fire, flavor, and faith. This is my ritual—rooted, real, and recovery-proof

facethyfear
Jul 25, 20254 min read


She Wanted Me Dead. He Was Waiting to Take Me.
Addiction had a name: LQXA. Death had a watcher: The Grand Looper. This is how I broke free and found life on the other side.

facethyfear
Jul 13, 20253 min read


C.J. Richards:Sliding Down the Wrong Turn
One wrong turn. A glacier. Laughter and chaos on Oregon’s Timberline Trail. Sometimes the best stories come from getting lost.

facethyfear
Jul 10, 20253 min read


A Midnight Craving, Cold and Redeemed
I used to black out. Now I just get fussed at for crumbs. One night you’ll sneak to the fridge—not for pain, but for peace.

facethyfear
Jun 11, 20252 min read


FTF Journal: I Just Don’t Have the Energy for Bullsh*t Anymore
I used to chase chaos. Now I chase peace. This is about healing, letting go, and finally choosing love over destruction.

facethyfear
Jun 6, 20252 min read


🌱 FTF PlantMasters Porch Grow Guide:
Learn how to grow okra and bell peppers on a screened porch in Savannah. FTF PlantMasters makes gardening simple and powerful.

facethyfear
Jun 5, 20253 min read


I LOVED COCAINE, BUT IT TRIED TO KILL ME
I don’t trap anymore—I testify. Three years clean from cocaine. I loved it. It almost killed me. But God had other plans. #FTF #1109

facethyfear
Jun 2, 20254 min read


The Rootprint: A Mixtape for the Misunderstood
“I’m as they get.” Step 4 stripped me down but built me back. This ain’t just recovery—it’s a mixtape for the misunderstood.

facethyfear
May 27, 20253 min read


“LIFE AFTER: A LETTER TO THOSE STILL INSIDE”
Grilling sober. Growing basil. Resting deep. This Memorial Day, I didn’t relapse—I reclaimed peace. That’s FTF living.

facethyfear
May 27, 20252 min read
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