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A Wrecked & Reborn™ Story The sky was breaking. Not just the sky—the road, the air, time itself. Everything was coming apart. Bo could...

A Wrecked & Reborn™ Story The Rift is breaking. The race is no longer following the rules. The survivors have one last chance to...

At FaceThyFear, we believe in the power of transformation—moving from darkness to light, from wreckage to renewal. The 12 Steps of...

© 2025 FaceThyFear® – All Rights Reserved By Malcolm Pannell | FaceThyFear® Disclaimer: The content in this article is based on personal...

FaceThyFear® | www.Facethyfear.com Trademarked & Copyrighted The Weight I Didn’t Know I Was Carrying I used to think I knew what pain...

This Valentine’s Day hurt differently for me. As I sat reflecting on love, I felt a deep ache—not just for romance, but for the bonds...

Adventures: Fishing with Uncle Clyde and My Dad Uncle Clyde/ Black Sea Bass Fishing with Uncle Clyde has been one of the greatest...

FaceThyFear Recipe Feature: Hunter’s Fall-Off-The-Bone Ribs At FaceThyFear, we believe in celebrating the simple joys in life—like...

FaceThyFear Presents Frozen Memories: Ice Fishing Adventures on Lake Winnipesaukee By Malcolm Pannell CJ Richards/Yellow Perch The sun...

The Limits of Self-Reliance “ We asked ourselves why we had them [fears]. Wasn’t it because self-reliance failed us?” – Alcoholics Anonymous, p. 68 In recovery, many of us wrestle with the idea of letting go of self-reliance. For so long, we believed we had to face the world on our own terms—leaning on willpower, pride, and sometimes sheer stubbornness. But in that isolation, we found fear, discontent, and a deep sense of separation from the peace we were truly searching for.

Disclaimer: This post discusses personal experiences with mental health, recovery, and references to music that some readers may find...

Inspired by The Sober Kitchen by Liz Scott Cooking can be an act of self-care, especially during recovery. When life feels overwhelming,...

Disclaimer: This post focuses on songs that bring positivity and peace into my life. It’s a continuation of my journey, showcasing the lighter side of recovery. If you’re new to recovery or navigating sensitive emotions, take what resonates and leave the rest. Remember, music can be a tool to heal and uplift, and you’re never alone on this path. After reflecting on the darker songs that once resonated with me, I wanted to share the opposite: the music that lifts me up, inspir

Original commissioned Zone-4 artwork Driving through Atlanta after six months of rehab in Savannah was a moment I’ll never forget. With...

FaceThyFear: From Darkness to Light www.Facethyfear.com Introduction: Embracing Meditation as a Way to Peace Step Eleven from the Big...

From Shadows to Light: Transforming Full Moon Rituals in Recovery By Malcolm Pannell – FaceThyFear Founder For years, the full moon held a strange power over me. I called it a ritual, but in reality, it was an excuse—an excuse to use cocaine, indulge in chaos, and justify my addiction under the guise of spirituality. I’d set intentions, make Moonwater, and convince myself I was tapping into something greater. And maybe I was—but it wasn’t what I thought. During these rituals,

The air crackled with Rift energy, static waves distorting the desolate terrain. Spectre’s 1995 Mustang 5.0 sat silent in the heart of...

Old Bags, Old Music, New Mentality By Malcolm Pannell I was scrolling through Instagram yesterday, watching some motivational content,...

The storm was no longer just a force of nature. It was alive, an entity pressing down on the racers, shaping the path ahead. The Rift had...

Every day, I get reminders of why staying spiritually connected is so important. One of the biggest influences in my recovery has been...